Breast feeding isn’t easy you know…

When Amelia was 4 days old and my milk has just come in (around day 3 dinner time) she point blank refused to feed.  She screamed, coughed, choked, fell asleep on me etc and wouldn't feed.  I had fast let down to start with, so I started expressing first, so it didn't choke her.  In the end, all she did was sleep - solid for 10 hours.  We tried everything to wake her to feed but she wasn't interested and too weak to wake due to lack of food.  Then she started shaking.  We rang the midwife who said it sounded like dehydration, so we had to rush her to A&E.  She did have dehydration and we spent the next 6 hours (till 3am) trying to get her to feed.  Luckily our nurse in children's ward was a BFC and spent hours and hours with me and Amelia getting her to feed.  She'd feed a bit, then stop and sleep.  I expressed 3oz in 30 minutes with their electric pump and she took it all, in 1 go, totally satisfied and winded etc before sleeping again.  I was so relieved she had a full tummy.  Once she woke, the nurse tried again to latch (wouldn't discharge until she was feeding) and she did it perfectly.  It hurt and she wouldn't feed for more than 10 minutes before sleeping or gagging on the shield (I have flat nipples and she wouldn't feed at all) so we were asked to top her up with ebm or formula after each feed, which we did and after 21 days she was almost back to her birth weight (she went down to 6lbs, 12% of birth weight lost in 4 days).
At first, I couldn't express enough for her, so she would have 2oz expressed and 1oz formula, that slowly increased as she got bigger and obviously more hungry.  Now she's having 2-3 bf a day (but was on nursing strike for a few days during her 6 week growth spurt) and 5-6 bottles which are a mix of ebm and formula.  She is happy, smiling, hardly ever cries, happy and content.  That's all I've ever wanted for her.
For us, exclusively bf'ing wasn't possible, but she's still getting it from me and I'm not ready to give up giving it to her.  I am, from today, going to try and give her more breast feeds and top up afterwards with less bottle.  Its not painful and I enjoy it, but sometimes my H likes to feed her, which is why she has more bottles. 
Reading a thread on Hitched about breast feeding has made me realise how important bf is to me and I don't want to stop, she's only 8 weeks (Sunday).