All I really wanted whilst being on maternity leave was a couple of weeks or so resting, relaxing, nesting and socialising. I was hoping for at least 2 weeks at home and then perhaps she'd come on the third week (this week) and then we'd have some nice time together with her Daddy. Now, its all a bit different and I find myself for the first time in weeks hoping and praying she isn't about to make an appearance.
Unfortunately James' Nan had a stroke 2 weeks ago and it is looking more and more likely that she isn't going to recover from it. So Saturday, we're going to brave the M25 and the 2-3 hour journey and go see her. The worrying thing is that something will happen on the way there or the way back. I was led in bed worrying about it last night. There is no way James would be able to deliver a baby on the motorway but worse, there is no way I'd be able to cope without pain relief! We're going to take my notes and bags etc, but I am still incredibly nervous. Still, he's my husband and there is no way in this world I could let him go alone.
Bean if you can hear me, you need to stay put a few more days sweetheart, just so Mummy and Daddy can visit your Great Nanny Peggy. Please do not go putting your Mummy through anything whilst we're away from home.
The worst thing is, she's totally and fully engaged, I've been getting niggles for the past couple of days and today I have really bad backache, all of which I know are quite possible signs. Fingers crossed she's not in a hurry to make an appearance as the alternative is just too much to even bare thinking of.
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